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This song resonates too much.. Idontwannabeyouanymore by Billie Eilish Don't be that way Fall apart twice a day I just wish you could feel what you say Show, never tell But I know you too well Got a mood that you wish you could sell Sometimes, you just can't help but fall apart. Just when you think  'You're okay, You're fine. It will pass.', that's when it all falls apart.Wrong tone of voice, wrong words, wrong movements. Anything. Anything can get wrong, making you feel weak and break apart. You cried buckets, pushing everything out, just so that you can function again.  You wish for words you want to say but you bottled it up. Because you know there won't be anything good out of it. In the end, you lose yourself? or do you become stronger?  I wonder.  Well, for now, I could live.  Probably when it become so bad,  only then. only then i will choose again. 

So many things confused me. I am still youbg, therefore i am learning. However, i refused to accept bulls given by people. I said 'yes' but i might grumble. For me, when it's a school activity, you should try to participate. I know, i know, it's annual activity but every year will be something new. Don't use the reason 'I am retiring' nor 'I refuse because i don't like some person'. You are working in a community and it may be your home for years to come. Please forget them. You will only make you sick thinking about them when they don't even think about you. Plus, i always believe having a heart-to-heart talk. Whenever i have a conflict, i do one, write all the conversation n try to forget them. Because i choose to be healthy. And i choose to be positive. Life is too short just to be hateful. So, let's live life free of hate.