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It's funny to hear atok's speech.  My atok is almost 75 years old, So, I cn always hear new unheard off Malay words.. Well, not unheard but old words,  nobody actually used it anymore. For example: 1. Meringkik: laughing like a donkey 2. Siba: couldn't remember what it is 3. Pokah: cut / broke into 2 4. Pohak: tersedak?? (couldn't remember too) 5. Berburas: berbuih Since the words are old ones n x prnh didengari, whenever she used the words, we (the cucu) will laugh~ Juz bcoz it sounds funny. I will remember these words well :-P

so exhausting.  konvokesyen graduan IPG, starting from 26th - 29th June. ada 6 sidang. sidang pagi (1, 3, 5)  sidang ptg (2, 4, 6). each sidang is for different courses example:  usually, sidang 1 (pagi) untuk kos TESL n BM, while sidang 2 (ptg, hari yg sama) untuk PK, so, each sidang adalah memenatkan.. sy, ahli KRS, kne buat kwln luar. kawalan luar as in jaga pintu masuk, guide parents and graduan, panggil graduan untuk berbaris bfore msuk hall. ha,ni jadual kami:  jgn kata kerja kami senang n kami ada masa nak lepak. 6.30 am: bergerak ke PICC 7.00 am: smpai PICC, siapkn dewan n susun papan penanda bg graduan 7.20: mula panggil graduan. 7.30 am: pergerakan msuk graduan, ahli akademik, ahli senat 8.00 am: pntu dewan ditutup, mjlis bermula, kawalan pintu bermula  (make sure no parent/ graduan keluar sesuka hati) 12.30 pm: mjlis hbes, kwln pintu, lunch, solat. 1.20 pm: pggil graduan sidang ptg,  1.30: ...

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alright, 4 paper done, only 1 left. 20 / 5 = KH  after dat, i'll be a half - free girl. hahaha~  why half - free,  bcoz i still hv a KRS work to do.  so, after that, bru boleh blek rumah. so, wish me luck!!

in sya Allah, next monday will mark the start of exam week, for this semester, it will be continuous, rather than a day gap in between exam subjects. 13 /05 = BCM  14 / 05 = TRV  15 / 05 = TLS, SP  20 / 05 = KH  so, please pray for my success >,<' i know that right now, i am not that smart or hardworking enough.  but in sya Allah, i will do my very best to enter the dean list. together with my other friends.  aminnnn~~~ =) to the others, who is having their exam or will be,  break both legs!! 

You can withhold words, but you can't silence the heart. And yours is screaming.  Yasmin Mogahed, April 19th, 2013  yes, i would say my heart is screaming right now. the reason (s) is/are unknown. i wish i can use words. but no. i would not use the words. i'd learnt that words can never soothe the hurting heart nor neither it will let the heart become how it use to be

today,  we conducted a workshop at SJK (C) Tai Thung. i won't lie and said it was a breeze. nope, ladies and gentleman. it wasn't a breeze and never will be. there are 60 of year 1 students, so, let see what we faced during the workshop. the challenges:  1. language barrier. their level of proficiency in english is low.  it is one thing to unable to use english or understand them,  it's another thing not to be able to use bm.  since my last resort to make them understand us (me n my group) is by using bm,  it just made it harder when they can't even use bm..  2. level of energy ya ampunnnn, they were very energetic.  they can't sit in one place.  really.  i felt like a shepherdess, at loss on how to control the sheeps =.=' . they would run away whenever there are chances.  they are literally all over the hall.  so, we had to chase them,  ask them to return to the group,...

lg 3 minggu nk exam, tp still x stdy lg. msih lg de klas. nk ulgkaji sndiri memg asyik mls je. hoii, cik adik. jangan nk malas - malas, pointer nk kne mntapkn lg. nnt x lpas intrview n posting coz pointer buruk >.< okay, maka kita kne mula buat ulangkaji. start dr malam ni jgk. janji pd diri sendiri.  cpt!! in sya Allah, JANJI akan study!! ok, good. dh jnji pd dirikn,  jd kne tunaikn. sbb tu amanah pd diri sndiri. so, berusahalah~

alhamdulillah, our BIG is done~~~ XD it ran smoothly, well except we were late for 15 mins, juz because we didn't know the route. gahahaha~ so, of coz we had to call for back up @ our lecturer, mr. Mahadi~ so, when we arrived, we ate breakfast n started the ice-breaking. u know, i, personally, was at lost. becoz this is my first time of being a facilitator, so, i don't quite know how to proceed with my group. but alhamdulillah, they started to loosen up during the treasure hunt. it was fun seeing them trying very hard in breaking the secret code, preparing for the talent show and many more. they gave all of us their full cooperation =) well, except for one thing. one of my anak buah decided to sneak away during the practice of the talent show. ok, granted i was the one who gave them to go and buy a drink at the canteen.. but that was because we were running around for treasure hunt n i am sure they were exhausted. so, when i realized she had gone for too ...

secara jujurnya, ada masa, aku terasa dengan kau. ada masa juga, aku sedih dibuat kau. dan makin menjadi rasa sedih yang semakin mendalam, bila aku tak mampu nak beritahu kau apa yang aku rasa. mungkin sebab aku rasa, tak adil untuk aku terasa atau sedih kerana kau, sebab aku pun pernah buat kau terasa dan sedih. mungkin purata aku buat kau lebih banyak dari kau buat aku sedih atau terasa. tak mengapalah. jiwa aku memang sakit agaknya. heh.

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful.  For indeed, with hardship [will be] ease.  Indeed, with hardship [will be] ease.  94: 5,6

AT LAST!! NO MORE ASSIGNMENT !!!  woooooo~~ spe x gembira memg gilalah. hahaha~  naek cuti, memg pulun semua~~ BCM reflection SP part III  pergh, memg lega.  jom fokus exam plak. kali ni wat persediaan awal - awal,  n  mesti score tingi-tinggi. aminnnn, in sha Allah =)

to my dearest mr.i, WELCOME TO THE 21 CLUB!!! x pyh nk sangke muda sgt~ kita dh sme umur. hahaha~ XD my wishes to u: may Allah bless you, may you get whatever you wishes,  may you be happy, stay cute n cheeky, may you stay huggable ;P n  i wish all of those above for you, for every single seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks and years. so, be happy on this birthday of yours n have a blast =) p/s: nk nyanyi lagu happy birthday on the phone, but i changed my mind. heheh~ p/s/s: i adore you. you know how much <3

alhamdulillah,  PBS dh selesai. while tgh PBS,  3 assignment dh siap dihantar:  SP part II TLS part III (reflection)  TRV part III (reflection) tinggal another 3 assignment:  KH SP part III  BCM  in sya Allah,  akn diusahakan untuk siap mse cuti ni. *really?? oh well, go me~~  in the meantime,  jom enjoy holiday!! weeeeee~~

hari ni interview cikgu KH, y? untuk assignment KH pulak. we got to ask psl struktur organisasi,  pengurusan bengkel, pengurusan stok, bahan dan alatan, mcm mne cikgu uruskan PnP.. all sorts of things. kne ambik pictures jgk.  ni sume akan diletak dlm file. hooo~  nsib baeklah ada fara n izzat.. kalau sorg, memg x trbuatlh. hehehe~  hari ni relief class tahun 5 untuk waktu muzik, nk bg students men rekoder,  akn mengganggu kelas laen, jd bg dieorg exercises word search. semangat buat keje coz dh jnji dpt hadiah. hehehe~ children are sooo cute =)

alhamdulilllah, selesai PBS hari ke 3. btw,hari ni x de relief tp izzat n fara ada. hewhewhew~ XD xdelah, teman izzat g relief kelas. tp since just 30 min n the students de keje rumah, kiteorg juz pantau je. n alhamdulillah jgk, coz SP part II dh siap dihantar. berkejar wei nk siapkn bende ni. pewww~ so, let do assignment KH n SP part III plak. gambatte~~~

jd guru gnti for year 6C. memg sporting dieorg ni. x takut nk btulkn cikgu lg. kantoi btol cikgu x reti eja  "hippopotamus" dieorg komen, "cikgu, salah tu cikgu eja."  so,  tgk balik board  n bru sdr memg dh slh eja. dangggg, memalukan diri sungguh. =.='  haha~ futhermore,  ade student komen le me n my partner muka serupa mcm adik - beradik. gahahaha~ x naklah jd adik - beradik, tu calon husband tu~ XD sila note prkataan bold tu~ *wink

gara - gara takut jalan raya sesak, serta sesat, maka le me n partner keluar awal dr kwsn rumah, kul 6 am. yup,jam 6.00 pagi. tau x kul bpe kami smpai sekolah PBS kami? kul 6.19 am. oh maiiii, awai betolll. so, kami g breakfast dulu. kul 7 bru gerak g sekolah n lapor diri. jumpa 5 org lg students IPG lapor diri n berPBS di sekolah yg sama. pusing 1 sekolah ambik gmbr, sekolah ni quaint~ seriusly quaint. tp jumlah pelajar dia. amboiiii, 2400 org.  patutlah kelas ada 12 =.=' disebabkn saiz sekolah ni kecik. ada 2 sesi: pagi n ptg. sesi pg for yr 1,5 n 6. sesi ptg plak for yr 2,3 n 4. oh ye, lupe nk bgtau nama sekolah~ *drumroll tadaaaa~~~ sek keb setiawangsa sekolah berprestasi tinggi~ cuak btol mse dpt tau sks ni sekolah sbt. yelah, karang rosak nme dept n ipg if slh ajar students. tp alhamdulillah, sume pun ok je~ so, let's see how it will be for the next 4 days =)

alhamdulillah, KOT dh selesai, maju dpt second place =) krs dpt 3rd =)  tp.... acara hurdle dpt no 4 =(  acara faveret.. xpelah.. next year,  aku akn cuba dptkn pingat emas!! acara 4x400m, alhamdulillah dpt emas weyh!! x sia-sia aku x pkai kasut kt tgh panas. senior sume tnye aku serius ke x nk pkai kasut.  aku ckp x nk.  kn betul, bila kaki sakit, makin laju aku lari. x pikir psl penat pun.  hahaha~ alright,  now let us start fokus pd PBS plak. in case of emergency, ambik keta,  now task trbaru :  *drumroll practice bwk keta ahahahaha~  kantoi x reti bwk keta. bkn x reti,  kurg mahir. auto senang.  ni manual tahu~~~ in sya Allah, akn diusahakn~ 

weiii, pening kot. bnyk sgt bnde dlm kepala, smpai boleh trmimpi2. dlm minggu ni:  microteaching TLS, latihan kawad (5 hari @ isnin - jumaat)  saringan acara (x rse menang tahun ni)  lesson plan SP yg x terusik, pembetulan lesson plan TRV  reflection TRV  KOT  PBS oh mai, oh mai, again, bznye diri ku ini~  *bajet perasan, again x tau sama ada diri sndiri yg procrastinate or masa actually memg x cukup. but rasanya yg first tu. hahaha~ * nada sarkastik =______________________________='