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i am sorry, i make you worry, i break my promises, i make you mad, i offend you. truly, it is not my intention, not in the slightest. but i guess i had given you so many reasons, flimsy reasons, that over time,it just made you tired on hearing it instead of soothing your heart. i am sorry. you must feel tired right? i am sorry, you should be resting. not worrying about me. i am sorry...

to: TESLIAN IPIK, Happy 3rd Anniversary!!! being scolded by lecturers, being called as the worst cohort in TESL dept's history, having so many failures in almost every semester exam, those challenges never broke our spirit down, from 104 teslians -> 94 teslians, we made it semester by semester, we had encountered many problems, yet we are still here, may we be together for another 2 more years, and may we graduate together with all 94 of us. GO, TESLIAN COHORT 2!!

BIG for this sem requires all 179 of us to go to Sabak Bernam. the theme is to serve the people there. the original plan is to help plant the bakau trees during the Bakau Plantation Programme.  but since the haze is too thick, our head of BIG decided to let us go on a tour to the 5 different factory. my class got to go to the kerepek one. it was nice and we were able to buy kerepek to be brought back. unfortunately, camera is not allowed in the processing factory. so, i can't show any pictures here.  but it's ok.  i'll upload pictures during our stay there later.

weeee~ alhamdulillah, dipermudahkan Allah =) you see, actually during the holiday, my presario CQ-42 got injured. it can be turned on,  but.. the screen was black.  i can't see anything. so,  i started to research what happened. found out that there's only 2 reason  1. the screen 2. the chipset i cringed reading the price and how long it took to repair either problem, most charged RM 350++ and 2 weeks... but alhamdulillah, i found out about a computer shop at Low Yatt from a blog, Afif PLC . this blogger had been to this computer shop for the past 5 years, he said this shop is professional, trustworthy with a reasonable price. so, i decided to send my laptop there. the technician just took 10 minutes!!  which is amazing + the price is reasonable. the service is really ok, he answer my questions friendly. i think i will send my laptop for repairs here next time. thank you, Komputown Sales and Service!...

1. 1st day of the 4th sem. which meanssss  the start of a NEW semester  which meanssss  NEW subjects n lecturers~  Buttttt, we get Mr. Mahadi!!! Wohooo~  Our cool dad is back! 2. Election for class committee. for the 2nd time, Syahmi won it anonymously.  Oh well, that happen when you are good~  Andddd when kiteorg mls nk tukar KK bru.  gahahaha~  so, congratulations, Syahmi!! ;-) 3. BIG is on 23rd - 25th of June oooh maiii,  bru msuk klas dh kne gnti kelas balik =.='  theme: khidmat masyarakat n alam sekitar  got to plant the paya bakau trees?? niceeee, leh maen cmpk tanah paya pd syg n athie.  muahahahahaha~ *evil grin 4. 25th - 26th of June Technology of Education event kami, G4.9 kne open a booth. Hmmm, i wonder how???  Xpe, let's wait for our KK, Syahmi (again :-D) to brief~ ~ in overall, boleh nmpk x betapa hecticnya sem ni??  but since every sem pun mcn ...

It's funny to hear atok's speech.  My atok is almost 75 years old, So, I cn always hear new unheard off Malay words.. Well, not unheard but old words,  nobody actually used it anymore. For example: 1. Meringkik: laughing like a donkey 2. Siba: couldn't remember what it is 3. Pokah: cut / broke into 2 4. Pohak: tersedak?? (couldn't remember too) 5. Berburas: berbuih Since the words are old ones n x prnh didengari, whenever she used the words, we (the cucu) will laugh~ Juz bcoz it sounds funny. I will remember these words well :-P

so exhausting.  konvokesyen graduan IPG, starting from 26th - 29th June. ada 6 sidang. sidang pagi (1, 3, 5)  sidang ptg (2, 4, 6). each sidang is for different courses example:  usually, sidang 1 (pagi) untuk kos TESL n BM, while sidang 2 (ptg, hari yg sama) untuk PK, so, each sidang adalah memenatkan.. sy, ahli KRS, kne buat kwln luar. kawalan luar as in jaga pintu masuk, guide parents and graduan, panggil graduan untuk berbaris bfore msuk hall. ha,ni jadual kami:  jgn kata kerja kami senang n kami ada masa nak lepak. 6.30 am: bergerak ke PICC 7.00 am: smpai PICC, siapkn dewan n susun papan penanda bg graduan 7.20: mula panggil graduan. 7.30 am: pergerakan msuk graduan, ahli akademik, ahli senat 8.00 am: pntu dewan ditutup, mjlis bermula, kawalan pintu bermula  (make sure no parent/ graduan keluar sesuka hati) 12.30 pm: mjlis hbes, kwln pintu, lunch, solat. 1.20 pm: pggil graduan sidang ptg,  1.30: ...

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alright, 4 paper done, only 1 left. 20 / 5 = KH  after dat, i'll be a half - free girl. hahaha~  why half - free,  bcoz i still hv a KRS work to do.  so, after that, bru boleh blek rumah. so, wish me luck!!

in sya Allah, next monday will mark the start of exam week, for this semester, it will be continuous, rather than a day gap in between exam subjects. 13 /05 = BCM  14 / 05 = TRV  15 / 05 = TLS, SP  20 / 05 = KH  so, please pray for my success >,<' i know that right now, i am not that smart or hardworking enough.  but in sya Allah, i will do my very best to enter the dean list. together with my other friends.  aminnnn~~~ =) to the others, who is having their exam or will be,  break both legs!! 

You can withhold words, but you can't silence the heart. And yours is screaming.  Yasmin Mogahed, April 19th, 2013  yes, i would say my heart is screaming right now. the reason (s) is/are unknown. i wish i can use words. but no. i would not use the words. i'd learnt that words can never soothe the hurting heart nor neither it will let the heart become how it use to be

today,  we conducted a workshop at SJK (C) Tai Thung. i won't lie and said it was a breeze. nope, ladies and gentleman. it wasn't a breeze and never will be. there are 60 of year 1 students, so, let see what we faced during the workshop. the challenges:  1. language barrier. their level of proficiency in english is low.  it is one thing to unable to use english or understand them,  it's another thing not to be able to use bm.  since my last resort to make them understand us (me n my group) is by using bm,  it just made it harder when they can't even use bm..  2. level of energy ya ampunnnn, they were very energetic.  they can't sit in one place.  really.  i felt like a shepherdess, at loss on how to control the sheeps =.=' . they would run away whenever there are chances.  they are literally all over the hall.  so, we had to chase them,  ask them to return to the group,...

lg 3 minggu nk exam, tp still x stdy lg. msih lg de klas. nk ulgkaji sndiri memg asyik mls je. hoii, cik adik. jangan nk malas - malas, pointer nk kne mntapkn lg. nnt x lpas intrview n posting coz pointer buruk >.< okay, maka kita kne mula buat ulangkaji. start dr malam ni jgk. janji pd diri sendiri.  cpt!! in sya Allah, JANJI akan study!! ok, good. dh jnji pd dirikn,  jd kne tunaikn. sbb tu amanah pd diri sndiri. so, berusahalah~

alhamdulillah, our BIG is done~~~ XD it ran smoothly, well except we were late for 15 mins, juz because we didn't know the route. gahahaha~ so, of coz we had to call for back up @ our lecturer, mr. Mahadi~ so, when we arrived, we ate breakfast n started the ice-breaking. u know, i, personally, was at lost. becoz this is my first time of being a facilitator, so, i don't quite know how to proceed with my group. but alhamdulillah, they started to loosen up during the treasure hunt. it was fun seeing them trying very hard in breaking the secret code, preparing for the talent show and many more. they gave all of us their full cooperation =) well, except for one thing. one of my anak buah decided to sneak away during the practice of the talent show. ok, granted i was the one who gave them to go and buy a drink at the canteen.. but that was because we were running around for treasure hunt n i am sure they were exhausted. so, when i realized she had gone for too ...

secara jujurnya, ada masa, aku terasa dengan kau. ada masa juga, aku sedih dibuat kau. dan makin menjadi rasa sedih yang semakin mendalam, bila aku tak mampu nak beritahu kau apa yang aku rasa. mungkin sebab aku rasa, tak adil untuk aku terasa atau sedih kerana kau, sebab aku pun pernah buat kau terasa dan sedih. mungkin purata aku buat kau lebih banyak dari kau buat aku sedih atau terasa. tak mengapalah. jiwa aku memang sakit agaknya. heh.

In the name of Allah , the Entirely Merciful, the Especially Merciful.  For indeed, with hardship [will be] ease.  Indeed, with hardship [will be] ease.  94: 5,6

AT LAST!! NO MORE ASSIGNMENT !!!  woooooo~~ spe x gembira memg gilalah. hahaha~  naek cuti, memg pulun semua~~ BCM reflection SP part III  pergh, memg lega.  jom fokus exam plak. kali ni wat persediaan awal - awal,  n  mesti score tingi-tinggi. aminnnn, in sha Allah =)

to my dearest mr.i, WELCOME TO THE 21 CLUB!!! x pyh nk sangke muda sgt~ kita dh sme umur. hahaha~ XD my wishes to u: may Allah bless you, may you get whatever you wishes,  may you be happy, stay cute n cheeky, may you stay huggable ;P n  i wish all of those above for you, for every single seconds, minutes, hours, days, weeks and years. so, be happy on this birthday of yours n have a blast =) p/s: nk nyanyi lagu happy birthday on the phone, but i changed my mind. heheh~ p/s/s: i adore you. you know how much <3

alhamdulillah,  PBS dh selesai. while tgh PBS,  3 assignment dh siap dihantar:  SP part II TLS part III (reflection)  TRV part III (reflection) tinggal another 3 assignment:  KH SP part III  BCM  in sya Allah,  akn diusahakan untuk siap mse cuti ni. *really?? oh well, go me~~  in the meantime,  jom enjoy holiday!! weeeeee~~

hari ni interview cikgu KH, y? untuk assignment KH pulak. we got to ask psl struktur organisasi,  pengurusan bengkel, pengurusan stok, bahan dan alatan, mcm mne cikgu uruskan PnP.. all sorts of things. kne ambik pictures jgk.  ni sume akan diletak dlm file. hooo~  nsib baeklah ada fara n izzat.. kalau sorg, memg x trbuatlh. hehehe~  hari ni relief class tahun 5 untuk waktu muzik, nk bg students men rekoder,  akn mengganggu kelas laen, jd bg dieorg exercises word search. semangat buat keje coz dh jnji dpt hadiah. hehehe~ children are sooo cute =)