inferiority~

i had read my friends' posts,

about how afraid they are for their A-level results,

and will they meet the cut - off point in order for them to continue their study overseas.

i had read my friends' posts on how in despair she was when the cut- off point was insufficient,

and she had to start all over again..

i know it's a cliche,

but i do know the feeling of unable to chase the dream u really want,

that is to fly and continue your studies overseas.

i just want to make it clear,

i am happy for them,

truly am,

because i know all of them have brilliant minds

and i do believe they will always be successful.

however, deep in my heart,

i felt inferior to my other friends

because 

my SPM result wasn't that good enough,

therefore, i didn't manage to pursue my dream in continuing my studies overseas.

i felt like my world had came crashing down,

and i had disgraced my family..

it took me quite a while to gather my strength and make a new choice

but right now,

i am grateful and happy enough 

because 

• i am still able to continue what i like the most (teaching + english) 

*though, sometimes i do doubt if i am making the correct choice of being a TESL teacher trainee

whenever the assignments are pilling in front me

• i met new friends, families and become stronger as time went by

what i meant to say,

you will sometimes missed out your supposed path once, twice or many times, 

when that happens, 

you might want to stop and relax for a while, 

when you are ready,

think what you want to do next,

and continue your journey with bravery and courage~