responsibilities

before this, 

i was a young girl with not so much worry on her. 

all i think about are: 

1. scoring my studies 

2. being a good daughter and sisters

3. be happy 

4. have fun 

5. consequences of my choices

so, my so-called burden wasn't that much. 

but now,

i am 22 years old. 

i am renting a house with 4 more friends, 

i have a car,

and only now i started to think more and understand about my responsibilities. 

y? 

because only now,

i understand how hard it is for me to just spend my money without thinking about expenses. 

i have to find enough money for the rents, the bills, the maintenance, foods and many more.

and thinking all this makes me respect my parents.

it's a wonder, really! 

i only need to think about myself,

but my parents,

they have to provide for 6 of us,

which are still schooling,

and at the same time, pays for the bills.

sometimes, 

i am envious with my friends, 

they can just have fun without thinking about money.

but i couldn't do the same,

but i guess it's a good thing, though.

becoz all of this are experiences that matures me.

and can help me in the future.

the future where i'm married, hv children n have to pay bills =)