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I just realised that I am still not ready. 3 years had gone by but I am still not ready. This scares me. I had always dreamed of doing this. I am convinced that I can do it. But now, I don't know. It scares me on how much the future depends on me, us. I am scared that I could not touch them. Or they don't understand what I taught. Or I couldn't inspire them. But right now, I am struggling, really struggling . Really.

welcome back, dear!! thanx for da presents =) I love it~ <3

right now, i am very much afraid. afraid that we will drift apart. what happen while i was away? can't you tell me whatever it is bothering you? can't you tell me what it is you want? we can talk. i am here. always here. but what had happened till it turn this way? please talk. you are still young. and you are still my family despite everything i said. i love you.. talk..  please...

ehem, pergi melancong tu, jgn lpe belikn something untuk sy~ kesiannnnn sy~ kne tinggal sorg kt sini. diulangi, siannnnnnn syyyy~~ *pnjg 3 harkat  hahaha~ x delah,  jz kidding. juz be careful, take care, paling pnting, jaga mata dan hati tu. tkut tertinggal kt sana, ada yg kne langkau laut china selatan untuk ambik balik yg trtinggal tu~ ;P

today marks the start of holidays~ though i have already started the holidays on monday~ *evil smirk so,  lovely people, please take care n stay safe during this school hols, enjoy your holidays, but make sure to fill it with memorable and useful projects. examples: learn to:  cook bake sew gardening cultivate good habits volunteering  youth camp basically anything that will give you new and useful experiences. as for me, i decided to improve my cooking and sewing skills.  plus, practice being a teacher to my siblings. muahaha~ *evil smirk juz kidding, i want to be ready. becoz next sem,  we will start our practicum, and my mentor is a meticulous person that i have had a chance working with. so i wanted to make sure i am ready for it.  but that's another story. for now, let's relax and enjoy our holiday =)

=.= what happened just now was i felt like i was sucked into the world of unknown. really, no kidding. the questions were not normal. they were mutant. mutant questions!! runnnnn for your life!!! * please imagine questions with arms and legs chasing u~ oh well, no use talking bout it. let us worry for the next ones~ writing, please be nice ;)

asmaul husna is also known as names of Allah there are 99 names each with their own meaning and benefits if you recite them hope you can benefit from them~ 1. Ar - Rahman  The All - Merciful  repeat this name 100 times after each fardu (Obligatory) prayer will have good memory, a keen awareness, and be free of a heavy heart. 2. Ar - Rahim The All - Beneficient repeat this name 100 times after each Fajr (Early Morning) prayer will find everyone to be friendly towards him and he will be safe from all worldly calamities. 3. Al-Malik The Absolute Ruler  repeats this name many times every day after the morning prayer. Will become rich by the grace of Allah. 4. Al-Quddus The Pure One The heart of those who repeat this name 100 times each day will be free from anxiety. 5. As-Salam The Source of Peace He who repeats this name 160 time to a sick person, will help him to regain health. He who repeats this name frequently will be safe from all ca

salam 1 Muharram~  in case you are wondering what Muharram is, since Islamic year is counted by lunar year, Muharram is the 1st month in Islam, this month is also the month that is considered sacred to muslims. this is based on surah At - Taubah, verse 36 "Four of them ( Zil-Qadah, Zil-Hijjah, Muharram and Rajab) are sacred." out of the four sacred months, Muharram has been blessed with certain specific virtues:-   The Holy Prophet Muhammad (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) said: "The best of fasts besides the month of Ramadhan is the fasting of Allah's month of Muharram." (Muslim) In another Hadeeth, Hazrat Ibn Abbas (Radhiyallahu-Anhu) reports: "that the Messenger of Allah (Sallallahu-Alayhi-Wasallam) said: "The one that keeps a fast in the month of Muharram will receive the reward of thirty fasts for each fast (in this sacred month)." (Tabraani) so, we muslims should take the advantage.  anyway, we start our 1s