bicara dari hati

trip akhir tahun ni, trip brsama keluarga. ingtkn ayah prnah ckp psl nk buat trip famili ke arah utara, alaaa, trip tnpa specific destination tu??? haaa, inilah trip kami: Perlis -> Pulau Pinang kami brtolak jumaat tgah hari, selepas ayah n adik2 lelaki selesai solat jumaat.. brhenti tdo di Hotel Sri Malaysia, Sg. Petani.. esok paginya, mulakan perjalanan ke Perlis pula, prgi Pdg Besar + lawat Pak Teh Wahid, ya Allah, memg seronok betul borak dgn dieorg. yelah, dpt jumpa sepupu yg jauh. mcm2 kiteorg borakkan smbil2 mkn. pagi Ahad, bertolak ke Pulau Pinang plak. Fizi nk tgk jmbtn Pulau Pinang wktu mlm, jd sementara tu,  kiteorg jln2 pusing Pulau Pinang n pergi mkn pasembor  mndi air terjun, tp sy  n ibu x mndi, adik- adik je mndi. lepak kt Pantai Batu Feringhi  unfortunately, gmbr jmbtn pulau pinang pd wktu mlm x ambik, hehe~  becoz dh ngantuk sgt, jd tgk sekejap  n then trus tdo~ memg seronok walau penat, insyaAlla

alhamdulillah, LULUS!!! weeeeeheeee~  bersyukur sgt2.. coz x sangka akn lulus kalau lihat pd kertas jwpn. xpelah,  ni x cukup lg untuk sy brpuas hati, masih ada ruang untuk diperbaiki.. insyaAllah,  akn diusahakan untuk menaikkn pointer untuk tahun 2 degree ni =) kepada rakan2 yg lulus,  TAHNIAH!!! kepada mereka yg x brnasib baek, usaha lg,  insyaAllah, boleh!!

at lasttttt~ dpt jgk buat pavlova. muahahaha~~~ buat sorg2 tau~ alhamdulillah, menjadi. famili komen ok. ikut resepi,  mstilh ok btol x?? hahaha~ gmbr x dpt disertakan  hal ini demikian kerana pavlova brkenaan telah dihbeskn oleh adik2 sblm smpt diambil gmbr~  to mr.i, tahniah!!!!! dh x pyh risau lg XD

bye hitam,  bye putih.. may you find happiness wherever you are =(

no words adequate enough to tell the stories of my heart~ 

"Oh yes, the past can hurt. But you can either run from it, or learn from it." Rafiki, from The Lion King run or learn?

ok,  exceeded my expectation. i thought it would be those mushy2, nonsense, typical cheesy msian romance movie, butttttt i was wrong. plot cerita still typical,  in a way, a girl (Dian),  cheated by her loved, trusted guy (Azad), n met another annoying but sweet guy (Haris), in the end decided to choose the said annoying but sweet guy. but i don't know, there's something special to this movie. this movie managed to make me go from "ewww" to "awww" to "u, cheating guy. u'll regret it!!!" to "awww,sweeet" again. wellll, the "eww" part is ble tgk how dat girl beria-ria dtg istanbul juz coz she wanted her bf to propose her, the "aww" part would be mse she struggled by herself cri umah sewa, register for her courses smpai kne tpu, no thanks to the so-called bf. next, kalau dh part "u, cheating guy. u'll regret it!!!", rsenya dh leh teka kot. yup, the bf cheated with

setelah sekian lama, demam panas dtg melawat, selsema + batuk pun ikut menjenguk sekali. haaa,  memg baring ats katil jelah, nk bgn pun x larat dh. tpkan time nilah nk ambik peluang bermanja dgn ibu, hehehe~ yelah,  slalu tu fawwaz je yg conquer ibu, ha, bila kakak dia sakit, die dgn baik hatinya 'pnjmkn' ibu dkt kakak. siap ckp lg " kakak sakit ye? fawwaz kasi pinjam ibu dkt kakak jap. nnt dh elok, kakak pulg blek. "  *sila note prkataan "pinjam" dlm hati, " ewah bdk kecik ni, mcm ibu tu milik dia sorg je." tp kira eloklh die nk kasi pinjam, kalau x, ibu tu memg milik dia sorg je. kakak2 + abg2 die nk peluk,  x pyh tunggu peluk,  bru duduk dkt dgn ibu je pun, die yg tgh maen sorg2,  boleh brlari tolak kiteorg ke tepi.  kirenya die je yg boleh pegang ibu =.=' bile marah,  die boleh ckp, "fawwaz kecik lg. jd fawwaz je leh peluk ibu!" alahai, adik yg sorg ni =_='

smiling is my favorite. you make me smile. that makes you my favorite - Elf

wohooo, ehhhh, silapppp. alhamdulillah. my parent dh balik dr mesir. terima kasih a. afiq, cuzinku yg hensem lg macho, kerana dh tlg anis jmput ibu + ayah, y sy x jmput sndiri? fobia ohhhh, lpas TERlanggar kereta org, x nk bwk keta dh, hatta dlm kg sndiri. serius fobia T.T fawwaz + amri straight menangis lepas nmpk ibu + ayah.  kakak2 dia buat muka cool je,  kakak2 dh bsr, harus jd tough.  ceh, pdhl nk nanges tp thn air mata. haha~ souvenirs dr mesir:  sy : 3 gorgeous shawl  fizi: a PINK ice watch (hilarious)  amri: chocolate ice watch  nani: blue ice watch  fawwaz: miniature aeroplane  a gambus tmpt hisap shisha  boxes of chocolate few huge buah delima  and bnyk lg. x larat nk list.  overallnya, these past 2 weeks were really an eye opener experience. serius weyh, bila ats bahu kita ada tanggungjawab nk jg 4 org adik, yg masing2 berumur 15, 11, 8 n 5 tahun n u r the only adult (20) in the house, mse tulah ak

I solemnly swear that I am up to no good.  - Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban  sometimes ;D

Find out who you are and do it on purpose - A Walk To Remember

dpt peluang prgi sbh, beli tket prgi balik dgn airasia pd hrga RM98, memg brbaloi~  prgi berlima, sy, miss F, miss J, miss W, miss B pemandu pelancong kami: miss Bel oh ya,  dpt jumpa miss A  n  mr. H yg mnjadi sbutan (dh brpunya ni)  hari 1 - Isnin,  12 / 11, papar -> beaufort hari 2 - 13 / 11, beaufort -> kota kinabalu hari 3 - 14 / 11 KK -> poring memg seronok dpt prgi sbh!! hopefully dpt prgi lg, with loved ones, of coz =) thanx to miss Bel n sesiapa yg dh tlg kami spnjg trip ni =)

perancangan Allah x de siapa yg tau, n  apa yg dh trjadi  pd Sabtu, 17 / 11 adalah perancangan Allah buat diri aku. bertenang, bersabar, usaha yg terbaik. Allah x akn beri apa yg tidak mampu ditanggung oleh diri kita.. insyaAllah,  aku mampu... skrg ni, hidup kne diteruskan..

ibu + ayah prgi mesir, yup, mesir. makanya sylh yg kena jga adik2. selama 2 minggu tau, 2 MINGGU!!!! cuak tahuuuuuu~ nk kena jg adik2, kalau jg diri sndiri, xpelh jgk. ibu + ayh prgi mesir, primarily to see how she is after the xcident, smbil2 tu, tgk kwsn die bljr, tmpt tggl die jgk. sbb tulah, kami yg len ni kne tggl. =.=' tp kata ayah,  alang2 dh smpai, mstilah sight-seeing jgk. maka, jdlah lwtn smbil melancong kt sana.. x aci!!!!!' hopefully, adik x pape, ibu + ayah slmt smpai n slmt pulg blek, kami yg trtinggal di m'sia ni slmt dr segala yg bahaya, aminnnnn~  *dlm hati psg niat, nk melancong ke luar negara plak

"Never be afraid to hope. It's the only way to begin."  Cam Rohan, "Mine till midnight" by Lisa Kleypas

aktiviti semasa cuti trip ke Sabah cari kerja waktu cuti buat pavlova  bljr bwk kereta manual repair motor hang out with siblings  jln- jln pusing kampung

sumber~

alhamdulillah,  these 2 papers marked the end of my final exam. wehuuuu~ paper PP @ Phonetics n Phonology started at 8.30 - 11 am, while CL from 2. 30 - 5.00 pm. yeah, if u noticed it, it's on sunday. yup. freaking weekend. haha~ alhamdulillah, PP mampu buat,  berkat thn mata dr kul 10 pm - 4 am 6 jam mengadap krtas2 + buku rujukan  brbalas2 soalan dgn mr. i yg menemani. terima kasih, mr. i!!! CL pulak agak brmslh, tp still dpt jwb. heh~  courtesy of otak yg pndai auta jwpn. hahaha~ pape pun, result keluar bln 12, jom kita tgk if kne referral / x.. hopefully x, aminnn~

ELT  a.k.a  English Language Teaching Methodology.. haiyoo~~~ killer btul! but then, mne prnah exam paper is not a killer paper, btol x? haha~ dh susah, soalan yg x de dlm silibus serabut kpala pk.. aiyaaaaa~  x dapek nk buat pape dah, tawakal jelah~  dh stdy sehabis baek dh..

oh~ 1st killer paper, suku trkorban dh jiwa.. haihhh~ soalan belit2.. jwpn pun trbelit jgklh. hahaha~  hopefully lulus.. aminnnn =)

I say, who says you can't  Have it all  I say, who says you can't  Get what you want  I've got a big dream, I want a big life  Life's like a cake, I'll take a big slice  -who says you can't have it all, dionne bromfield - 

alhamdulillah, my sister's x-ray result had came out.  she's ok, it's just that she had fragmented leg. luckily, it's not dat serious. so, i'm less worried.. thank you, Allah, thank you to my friends who prayed for her safety, thank you for the soothing words, thank you =)

u know how worry you are, when the people you love involves in accidents, this is what i feel right now, i'm worried, really worried. but may not be as worried as ibu is.. i got a call from her, saying that adiq was hit by a car. she suffered kaki retak n head injury she was actually on her way home from her class with her friends, she managed to avoid being hit by a van, but was hit by the car, and the car ran away. how the drivers drive the car, i don't care but where the heck did you put your eyes??? astaghfirullahalazim,  it's useless to be mad, when it had happened. all i wish is that for her to be safe n no bad head injuries because according to her friends,  she hit her head when she was knocked by the car.. please, let her be safe. insyaAllah...

kata k. Dina, " sakit hati ni,  satu ujian daripada Allah  utk tgk spe yg brsujud pada Dia mse sdih n gembira.  sbb slalu bla kita gembira,  kita lupakn Allah skjp,  n dlm hdup ni,  rmai org dtg dlm hdup kita,  jd org2 yg dtg kpd kita tu,  mungkin adlh ujian untuk kita sebagaimana kita mnjdi ujian untuk org laen.  contohnya,  kita kwn seorg ni,  pstu dia sketkn hati kita,  maknanya dia ujian kpd kita. samelah bla kita hurt org laen,  mknanya kita adlh ujian untuk org itu. xpe,  yg penting Allah x prnah kecewakn kita,  Allah bagi apa yg kita prlu,  bkn apa yg kita nak."

"wslm si comel,  sbb Allah bagi hikmah menangis ni mampu tenangkn kita sikit,  lps tu dpt cri jln keluar,  sbb bila kita menangis,  kita akn ingt Allah semula lps lupakn Dia sbb lalai,  sbb bila kita menangis,  ada org yg boleh share kasih syg dia pd kita  dan buat kita happy semula,  sbb bila kita menangis,  kita mungkin bljr untuk x ulangi sebuah kesilapan,  sbb bila kita menangis,  kita akn rsa nk brtaubat semula  n  menangis tu bagi hrpn utk bkak buku baru keesokan harinya =)"  (k. Dina Dinaso, 2012) 

dengar sini, kau kata aku ego n x matang. kau kata pasti rmai yg bnci aku kerana ego aku. kau kata lagi, aku x lyk brkwn dgn kau kerana ketidakmatangan aku. dan akhir sekali, kau kata sbnrnya, aku ini x lyk untuk kau hormati  tp  kau pilih untuk hormat aku  krana kwn aku itu. ni jwpn aku.  ya, aku mungkin ego n x matang. mungkin jg rmai yg bnci aku psl ego aku. tp sekurangnya, aku x judge/ memalukn org lain yg aku bru jumpa 5 minit.  bg aku, kau sgt RUDE. kemudian, kau tanya aku apa mslh aku???? kau x sdr yg kau dh malukn aku??? mungkin kau fikir aku ego,  jd kau beri aku ceramah di dpn org.  aku tahan mulut dari mnjwb apa shj yg kau kata,  sbb aku x nk malukn kwn aku. kwn yg kononnya kerana dia,  kau TRPAKSA hormati aku. sebenarnya,  aku x prlukn hormat kau kerana kau dh malukn aku. tp aku fikir yg aku x boleh kurang ajar  sbb aku X NAK KAU PANDANG BURUK KWN AKU.  lps kita brpisah, kau cari psl pulak dgn kwn aku tu. hei, kau

buat k. Dina, terima kasih untuk kasih sayang, k. Dina seorg kakak yg sgt baik, terima kasih untuk ilmu yg diberikn, untuk diguna pakai dlm hdup n kongsi dgn org lain, terima kasih untuk kefahaman n nasihat, anis dpt pandangan bernas dr seorang yg lebih matang dr anis.  ana uhibbukifillah abadan abada “Teman yang paling baik adalah apabila kamu melihat wajahnya, kamu teringat akan Allah, mendengar kata-katanya menambahkan ilmu agama, melihat gerak-gerinya teringat mati.”

sumber~ it's you =)

mr.i, thanx for the sweet present, thanx for the time, thanx for the patience, thanx for the love =)

senarai makanan yg mahu dimakan:  ikan keli masak sambal ibu telur masak sambal ibu  mint ice -cream (x ksh jnama pe) green tea frappucino sushi okay, ni sebenarnya dh smpai border mengada - ngada ni, tapi serius,  dua yg prtama memg seriusly nak... huuuuu =(

oooohhh, hbes dh UAK, tp pasni mula exam plak. hohoho, pendek kata  minggu exam DAH MULA. yaaaaaaa!!! minggu org jd zombie pun bermula jgk. hahahahaha~ oh ye, miming @ming ming dh bsr, dh kacak bergaya, tp kekal garang mcm dlu. ehhhh, silap. bkn garang ,  strict. ohh, 'ibu' sgt bangga sma kamu, miming!

sumber~ gonna call all these numbers whenever i'm in trouble =) why don't u try it too??

to a guy with MKHM as his initial, break both legs, i'm hoping you can do it, since i wasn't around that much to help you. do your best, remember,  you have a bet with someone. if you lose, you gonna regret it XD hahaha~ GOOD LUCK~ 

well, when you juz had a crappy morning to begin with, added to crappy unknown no kept on doing miscalled on your phone, plus the fear of being harassed with the same crappy no in war with your belief that it might be your friends, i ended up yelling in one of the empty class, yes, not mature. i couldn't agree more . also ended up hurting 2 people, my loved ones... seriously i hate it when this happened. huhh.... i am sad, angry, tension, frustated. i couldn't believe he would do that, knowing dat i dun really like unknown no calling me. now i have to start again. even if he forgives me, it wont be the same. a gap had already opened between us n we won't be like before.. i want to cry but i can't, so yeah, i'm gonna be moody for the day.. so, bye.. p/s: syg, i'm sorry. i'm hurt by wat u said n i hurt u back with my writings. sorry =(

hari ni ada kejohanan tenis tertutup, since kiteorg maen beregu, jd 27 /2, ade trlebih seorg tnpa partner(that's me)  jd, the one handling the game schedule decided to partner me with mr.Mutallip @our tennis coach i was so, so, so shocked. but yeah, partnered with the coach got me 2nd place XD but no thanks to me. i'm not dat good with tennis i ended up running mr. M ragged. pity him. also,i ended up getting scolded by him. sorry,sir. sy memg slalu pukul bola kuat bgai nk pukul org. heee XD  congratulations to the committee,  though you only had 2 days to organise it, you'd done it really well =) 

ok, sila abaikn post emo ni, terima kasih. first of all, sy dengan rendah hatinya ingin meminta maaf kepada sesiapa sahaja, yang telah sy skitkn hati / buat dia terasa. baek secara sengaja / x, yg sengaja, dgn niat nk tgur (ya, niat x halalkn cara)  yg x sengaja, sbb mulut sy yg jujur n x selari dgn otak. kata housemates, sy ni lurus bendul dlm satu2 prkara (mungkin?) jd kdg2 sy akn trkeluar kata2 yg x sepatutnya sy keluarkn.  serius, sy minx maaf!  ok, now let start with the real content. skrg ni musim depresi bg sy. coz i've been having this "foot in da mouth" syndrome. asyik slh ckp je. haih... dat's y tgh musim depresi. tp x delh depresi memnjg, juz kekerapan tu agk meningkat. hmm, kne hati2 ni.. penawar??? 1. mkn ubat? 2. brcuti? 1 is out no way i akn mkn ubat. ubat is pahit. le me x not like pahit ubat = pahit = NO so bercuti it is. where? x sure lg but will do it ASAP. now, me is happy XD

1 word?  G.A.N.A.S  pergh,  tgk kwn2 men, sy yg kt tpi yg risau. kami hntr 2 team, lycan a, lycan b lycan a menang 2 game, lycan b menang 1 game. bygkn,  bdk2 laki yg kurus keding, comel2 men rugbi, lwn plak lg besar dr kwn kita tu, mestilah kita pelik, btol x? "eh, boleh ke kwn aku ni men?"  "aihh, x bhye ke?" "ishhh, kne hempaplh die ni karang." haha~  memg brlaku tp x delah seteruk yg disangka. papepun, mcm games yg len, kita kne hati2 je. watever it is, tgk rugbi memg best =)

i'm happy knowing you are still alive, i'm happy knowing your heart is still beating, i'm happy for you, really. but you do know, you have people that loves you, so, whenever you have problems, you can always call us n talk, even if all we can do is just lending an ear to you.  love you 5 years ago n will continue loving you forever,  insyaAllah =)

terima kasih adik, dh lma along x borak dgn kau, secara jujur, along rindu kau. dulu, kita slalu lepak sme2.. tp, keadaan dh bnyk berubah. kau n aku pun dh berubah. tp insyaAllah, along sentiasa syg kau dgn yg laen. along sentiasa doa yg terbaek untuk kalian, rumah along sentiasa trbuka untuk kalian.  =)

wohoo,  game futsal dh hbes, jam 2.30 pm td. ohhhh, sgt memenatkn. but memg seronok XD sy yg x prnah men futsal langsung, tp sbb kwn2 convince  'just skdr tndg bola je pun', sy follow msuk team. hei2, spe kate skdr tndang tu memg salah besar. kne bljr skill curi bola, skill nk bwk bola prgi dkt kwsn gol, skill tndg bola keluar pdg coz nk maintain markah, mark org untuk dijaga. n mse nilah, bru perasan yg game bru start 5 minit, nafas dh trsekat - sekat cm dh nk asma je, haihh, brulh nk terasa diri ni dh tua.  n x fit lg. aisehhhh, kne exercise ni, cik. nmpk sgt awk dh berisi. =_________=' btw, terima kasihlh ye syg, dtg nk tgk sy men futsal. tp kn btol, sy lg hebat ble awk x de. hehe,  coz awk wat sy nebes. hahaha~

alhamdulillah, majlis mkn- mkn secara kecilan untuk shbt2 dh selesai, seronok tgk mereka yg dtg tu mkn mskn housemates. ehem, jgn slh fhm ye, sy tolong jgk tau!  tp sy in - charge of mengemas umah. truthfully, buat jamuan mkn memg memenatkn, but seronok. dpt raikan kwn2 baek n rptkn hubungan dgn yg x rpt. tp sedih jgk coz x dpt jmput rmai org. jd, minx maaf kpd mereka yg kami x dpt jmput  n terima kasih kpd yg hadir. insyaAllah, de rezeki kami akn buat lagi dgn lebih bsr.  amin~  p/s: housemates refused to allow for their pictures to be taken. jd x dpt tunjuk. sorry~

otak bercelaru dengan hati, maaf, perlu saya luah. sila abaikan jika terlalu ekstrem bagi anda. sekarang ni, tolong fikir baik - baik. kau nak dia atau orang tu? kalau kau nak dia, putus dengan orang tu. putus bagi aku, berhenti bertwitter, berfacebook atau sms. tak perlu nak bagi alasan pasal ex dia / mana - mana lelaki yang suka dia, dia setia pada kau, tak sms / fb / twitter dgn mana - mana lelaki kecuali abang dan kawan- kawan tapi ini yang kau balas? atas alasan apa kau nak berhubung dengan orang tu? atas alasan kau sahaja yang rapat dengan orang tu? bagi aku, itu alasan BODOH. ya, BODOH. oh ya, mungkin aku bukan kau dan tak rasa apa yang kau rasa, tapi pengalaman kita sama sahaja, bagi akulah aku pun pernah ada ex, pernah sms dengan ex konon atas alasan ingin jadi kawan, tapi mujurlah ex aku tak layan aku, kalau tidak, mesti aku macam kau dan orang tu. tak reti beza batasan kawan atau kekasih. lama - lama, aku  jadi sedar yang aku ni bodoh mengharap pad

you always said to me,  "stop talking to yourself. people thinks you are crazy." but i won't stop  becauseeee  sumber~  there you go, see!! this is one of da reason y i'm so smart. hehehehe~

hari ni keluar brsama keluarga.  pergi ke Cameron Highland!!! dh lme x cuti rmai2 =D seronok memg seronok.. tp part jalan yg berpusing2 mcm ular tulah yg lemah sket. alhamdulillah, x de yg muntah dlm kereta kali ni. hehehe~ kami bergerak awl pg, jam 6, ahli keluarga bergerak dr umah  n ambk sy di sy di cheras, brulh memulakan prjlnan kami.  niat asal nk mandi kt Lata Iskandar terpksa dibatalkn, coz ayh slh masuk jln.. =(  tp x pelah, memndangkan cuaca mendung  + angin kuat, sy x rse sy akn mndi kalau singgah Lata tu.  haha~ singgah di psr,  sj je nk tgk suasana,  beli strawberry coklat sgt sdp.   x smpt ambik gmbr, dh hbes kne mkn dlu.    untuk cenderamata, belilah teh2 yg beraneka perasa  syur2 segar strawberry segar. uhhh, memg sedap. tp bg sy, bkn tu yg penting. yg penting, sy dpt luangkn mse dgn keluarga. dh lma rsenya kami x brjln jauh smata2 untuk bercuti =) ayh kata, mungkin akhir tahun nnt,  ayh akn bwk ka

this is last du'a from me.. however, i would like to remind that, there is no really specific du'a to soothe your heart. every words in al - Quran is good for your heart, so, you are allowed to choose the one suits you.. this third du'a is shorter and easier to be memorize, so, you should be able to use it anywhere and everytime your heart is in pain. insyaAllah, Allah will soothes you, but  at the same time, you should not depend on the du'as only  n you should try to soothe your hearts too..  And it was reported from Anas (may Allaah be pleased with him) that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) used to say, when something upset him: “Yaa Hayyu yaa Qayyoom, bi Rahmatika astagheeth (O Ever-Living One, O Everlasting One, by Your mercy I seek help).”  sumber~

mabruk buat pasangan Kak Abbiey n suami.. majlis brlangsung ptg td.. dr kul 2 - 5 ptg kt sabak bernam x berkesempatan untuk hadir ats urusan peribadi.. ya Allah,  tgk gmbr2 psgn ni yg dipost d fb oleh rakan2, terpesona sekejap. muka k. Abbiey bercahaya n gembira sgt. alhamdulillah,  betullah Allah akn kurniakn kita psgn yg bersesuain buat diri kita. buat k. abbiey n suami, Semoga Allah memberkahi kalian di dalam kesenangan atau pun kesusahan.  aminnnn~

benda dlm kepala ni, yg selalu ada x prnh hilang hatta time tgh beraya ni, dh jatuh tergolek2, trus masuk gaung dh. hahaha~ benda pe? assignmentlah.. hari ni, tpt jam 4.30 pm assignment terakhir tlh berjaya dihntr~ weeeee n alhamdulliah~ maksudnya, dh boleh tarik nafas lega dh.  hehehe~ dh leh pk psl exam bln 10 t, n result =____=' aisehhhh, dh ade bnde len nk pk. xpelah, nk lupe kjap je ni.  esok start pk blek.  heh~  toodle peps~

i'm a clumsy girl. yes, i'm a clumsy girl. there's no use denying the truth. you see, just this morning i misplaced my keys  but luckily i found it. BUT i only realised it 2 HOURS later. yes, people. 2 hours later.. see, how CLUMSY i am.. i pity my family member and sayang. because they have to watch out for me =__=' sorry darlings n sayang...

this is the second du'a for your heart, but it's a bit long, therefore you might want to use it after your solah.. stay strong insyaAllah, Allah will help you. amin~ It was reported from ‘Abd-Allaah ibn Mas’ood that the Prophet (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) said: “No person suffers any anxiety or grief, and says: ‘Allaahumma innee ‘abduka wabnu (you say wabnatu instead of wabnu) ‘abdika wabnu (you say wabnatu) amatika, naasiyati bi yadika, maadin fiyya hukmuka, ‘adlun fiyya qadaa’uka, as’aluka bi kulli ismin huwa laka sammayta bihi nafsaka aw anzaltahu fi kitaabika aw ‘allamtahu ahadan min khalqika aw ista’tharta bihi fi ‘ilm il-ghaybi ‘andak an taj’ala al-Qur’aana rabee’ qalbi wa noor sadri wa jalaa’a huzni wa dhahaaba hammi (O Allaah, I am Your slave, son (you say daughter) of Your slave, son (you say daughter) daughter of Your female slave, my forelock is in Your hand, Your command over me is forever executed and Your decree

had the most exciting weekend among the never-ending assignments, ya Allah, thank you very much.. because of YOU, i was able to meet with my highschool friends, though its not all of us.. memg seronok sgt, yelah, coz rmai antara kami yg akn fly overseas. mcm smlm, Pae dh fly.. x lme, alfa, iq5, n spe ntah lg, dh x ingt.. had fun there walau sme 2 hari 1 mlm. n de bnyk shortcomings. insyaAllah, next gath mesti lg havoc.. hahaha =)  no pics right now due to it's my sister's therefore, had to wait her transfer it first =_='

ya Allah, i don't know y but i'm very lazy nowadays. too lazy, i've been putting off my assignment day by day. i know it's important for me to finish it ASAP but i juz refused to do so.. it's like i'll only be able to work fast when it's 2 / 1 day before the due date. duhhh, how to cure this? i won't be surprise if i get low mark.. =.=' please, someone help me..

i dun actually know the perfect to soothes people, becoz i' usually at lost on what to say, therefore,  i really hope that this can soothe you better... In al-Saheehayn it was reported from Ibn ‘Abbaas that the Messenger of Allaah (peace and blessings of Allaah be upon him) used to say, when he felt distressed: “La ilaaha ill-Allaah al-‘Azeem ul-Haleem, Laa ilaaha ill-Allaah Rabb il-‘arsh il-‘azeem, Laa ilaaha ill-Allaah Rabb is-samawaati wa Rabb il-ard wa Rabb il-‘arsh il-kareem (there is no god except Allaah, the All-Mighty, the Forbearing; there is no god except Allaah, the Lord of the Mighty Throne; there is no god except Allaah, Lord of the heavens, Lord of the earth and Lord of the noble Throne).” sumber~

1st eid~ obviously we celebrated with grandeur. as usual, we apologized to parents, between us siblings and then started to visit the others~ this time we clebrated at Selangor and will return johor on the 3rd raya~ 2nd eid~  buat rumah trbuka, seronoklh dpt jumpe cuzin2 yg dh lme x jumpe~ sbb grandparents belah ayah dah xde, so we did it to make sure semua boleh turun n jmpe.. nice =) 3rd  & 4th eid  berada di pontian, johor beraya di kg sblh ibu  x smpat nk ambk gmbr coz melayan anak2 sedara yg nakal n lincah  serta melayan tetamu yg dtg.. tp de gmbr pnjt pokok.  xkn nk tgk kot?  haha~  5th eid rancang nk pulang ke rumah, tp melencong ke tmpt laen plak, haha, beraya kt umah sedara yg jauh2 belaka  klang -> ijok -> gedangsa (brmlm) 6th eid gedangasa -> kg. gajah, perak, -> sabak bernam -> umah  akhirnya, smpailh jgk umah.. ingtkn ayh nk trus prgi kelantan skali... seronok tp memg sgt pnat 7th ei

ohhh, final day SBE.. alhamdulillah,  segala info yg dperlukan dpt dikumpul.. terima kasih pd ahli wrga MBS!! insyaAllah, if dpt pilih school for next SBE, sy nk mohon MBS coz seronok =) 

2nd last day, MBS start cuti rye lusa @ Jumaat, maka kami masih lg perlu hadir ke sekolah pd esok hari, never mind~ still, rasa jeles itu tetap ada, y? coz esok rakan2 len dh start cuti.. ada yg lpas sekolah trus balik, chehhhh~ hahaha~ xdelah, x heran sgt pun.. bkn x dpt balik pun,  cume lambat sehari je. hehe~ hari ni x de class untuk direlief, jd ambik peluang untuk siapkn folie SBE so hanya tinggal 3 perkara shj yg perlu disiapkan:  laporan aktivit yang difokus  laporan akhir  refleksi kne tunggu masuk klas for ELT bru leh buat.. which means esok ho,ok~  *dear mind, please remember cuti raya x brmakna kau cuti x buat keje~

you are back!!  *mood: excited n gonna terkam u  hahahaha~  missed u a bit *well, it's a lie

okay,  since yesterday was a big shock to us, today, i'm prepared XD brought my laptop,  and switched it on right after the assembly. oh yeah,  the students got duit raya from PTA *dang, i was jealous. wish i was a student here. didn't get any during my days finish my math @ numeral literacy assignment however at 10.54 am, literally bored. couldn't take it anymore, Ariza suggested to ask for any relief class. doesn't matter if they are having their examination, as long as we get to do something. met with Mdm Susie (GB), she requested from Mr. Che Sofi (GPK HEM) he got us a relief class (3B) okay, this one was the huge shock of today, cute boys but manner was something else, gritted my teeth n kept my quiet *dun want to be label as scary teacher luckily the teacher was there,   he was the one who scolded them.  heh~  well, what do you expect from all boys school *no pun intended still, it was fun~

okay,  first day SBE wasn't what i imagined in my mind.. y? becoz we got to know that the school is having their monthly test hailohhhh~  a challenge had presented himself~ luckily, the GB n the teachers are very - very nice *no kidding and we managed to arrange a class session for our observation hooyeahhhh~  dhlh tu, nyaris smpai lmbt, 5 min lg nk loceng bru kiteorg smpai.. fuhhhhh~ ni sume gara2 teksi yg x nk menunjukkan muka cheittt~ if tau, dh bwk keta dh tp x delh drive smpai skolah, juz smpai LRT cheras je. hehehe~  *cuak lg nk drive keta esp manual oh yes,  the students are soooo cuteeeee, so comel2 n cilik2. duhhhh.. if dpt, dh lme kne peluk2. ehem, not a pedophile tp nk menyatakan kegeraman je hahaha XD

insyaAllah, esok akn bermula SBE (school based experience) buat kali kedua.. kali ni bersama kumpulan baru n sekolah baru.. perasaan: bercampur - baur nk tau kenapa? coz dpt sek all boys~ SEK METHODIST (LELAKI) JLN HANG JEBAT wahaiiii, cm mnelh ye? kumpulan baru plak trdiri drpd sy, ariza, cynthia, zahin n christer hopefully esok x de pape halangan  n kami mampu menjalankan segala tugasan yg diberikan. aminnnn~

sumber~ you know, for me,  this is one of the most powerful sentences that people can say to me.. i feel like i can conquer any challenges in front of me~ n  i really, really, really treasure this sentence =)

bila baca blog org, baru terasa diri mcm bdk kecik, yg x reti nk matang, sedangkan umur dh meningkat naek. barulah nk muhasabah, "kenapa aku ni mengada2? kenapa aku ni x reti nak membesar? ke aku ni memg trbntut dr segala segi?" 1 word, P.E.L.I.K hmmm,  mebi sbb tu, org slalu tingglkn aku, sbb aku ni menyusahkn  yelah, dengan gelagat "bdk kecik" kononnya atau lebih tpt lg gelagat "gedik" puas dh pujuk hati @ perangai, tlglah matang, xkn smpai dh kawin, ada ank nk kekal perangai mcm ni.. hmmm, ntahlh.. persoalan yg xkn hbes..

i had read my friends' posts, about how afraid they are for their A-level results, and will they meet the cut - off point in order for them to continue their study overseas. i had read my friends' posts on how in despair she was when the cut- off point was insufficient, and she had to start all over again.. i know it's a cliche, but i do know the feeling of unable to chase the dream u really want, that is to fly and continue your studies overseas. i just want to make it clear, i am happy for them, truly am, because i know all of them have brilliant minds and i do believe they will always be successful. however, deep in my heart, i felt inferior to my other friends because  my SPM result wasn't that good enough, therefore, i didn't manage to pursue my dream in continuing my studies overseas. i felt like my world had came crashing down, and i had disgraced my family.. it took me quite a while to gather my strength and m

baru seminggu puasa, tp kt kwsn perumahan ni, dh mula bunyi mercun dh~ teringat zmn kecik2 dulu. eheh~ selalu men mercun / bunga api. tp lebih slalu men mercunlah.  especially mercun cina.  selalu maen cbr cuzin2 spe yg boleh pegang mercun cina smpai meletup. ada teknik tau kalau nk buat mcm tu. hahaha~  memg x prnah fikir jari putus ke, apa ke.. time kecik, jenis2 mercun yg agak famous: bunga api pop - pop ,  sumber mercun bola ,  sumber mercun mancis,  sumber mercun cina,  sumber ni baru sket je.. ade bnyk lg. nnti nk dkt rye, prgilah ke kedai2, tnye psl mercun / bunga api mesti ada nk men boleh tp kne jaga2.. tp sbnrnya, yg plg ditunggu - tunggu adalah *drumroll,please MERIAM BULUH / BATANG PAIP / TANAH =D bile cuzin2 laki blek umah arwah nenek, mesti ikut dioerg cr btg buluh, btg paip atau tin2 kosong,  buat meriam sy tukang tengok je, dieorg yg buat. hahahaha~  mse tu, excitednye x leh ceritalah

sumber~ =)

alhamdulillah, berkesempatan bersolat terawih di pontian, berimamkan adik pompuan, coz smpai around 10pm.. terawih pun dh hbes~ sahur plak, dpt rse mskn atuk~ yeahhh, mne de org sahur pg2 nasi + msk asam pds, lg2, atuk punye. perghhhh, memg brtmbh2lh hehe~ lgpun,  rmai yg blek kg sempena 1 ramadhan ni, so, seronoklah dpt jumpa dieorg. so, how's ur 1st ramadhan?

pernah tidak dikau merasa marah yang teramat, tetapi tidak diluah, hanya kerana tidak mahu si dia tahu? pernah tidak dikau merasa terasa yang teramat, tetapi ditolak tepi, hanya kerana tidak mahu si dia terasa? pernah tidak dikau mahu menangis meluah segala, tetapi ditahan, hanya kerana tidak mahu si dia sedih? pernah tidak dikau merasa ingin melukakan diri, tetapi tidak diteruskan, hanya kerana tidak mahu si dia merasa risau? pernah tidak dikau rasa ingin meninggalkan segalanya, dan hanya menutup matamu, tetapi hatimu menegah sekeras - kerasnya, hanya kerana hati itu masih sayangkan si dia?

And sometimes I wonder why we care so much about the way we look and the way we talk and the way we act and the clothes we bought how much that cost? Cause it even really matter? Cause the flight is a uphill battle But y’all tryna climb with the same ol’ ladder In the same boat with the same ol’ battle Why so shallow?  both of us, b.o.b ft taylor swift

tahniah kpd mereka2 yg brjaya mndpt tmpt kt u yg diingini, kpd yg x dpt,  xpe. mesti ada yg lebih baek untuk anda mungkin anda kena pertimbangkan pilihan laen pula kepada eyqa dr blog chocolate holic , tahniah sbb dh brjaya msuk ke UPSI, ehehehe, jd cikgu eh kita brdua. tahniah sgt2.. buat btol2 eh, syg!! aku sokong dr belakang =)  makin susahlah kita nk jumpa pasni.. xpelah,  asal time ko buat majlis,  ko jmput aku. x jmput,  aku merajuk. hehehe~ *maen - maen je

P.E.N.A.T

sumber~ yup, true enough.. while happiness is too hard to find or achieve, n u juz can't continue ur life, maybe you can stop for a while, try to reflect on any of life's simple pleasures .. or find any funny pictures , to give you something to hold on to while continuing with ur life.. this is because  YOU OWE IT TO YOURSELF!  that's wat i do~ 

in da middle of discussion, pretending to redo the slides, when the truth is i'm surfing the web muahahaha~ nah, actually i am redoing my slides, but of coz, i'll be like "while diving, drink water" hik hik *sorry mdm ** k, sumpah. penggunaan "hik hik" sgt menggelikan

  this is one of the things that i really like whenever i'm down with problems, and i guess i am lucky enough  to have many people that give me the most needed hug beside me, my heartfelt gratitude to these people for their hug, mom, dad, sue, fawwaz, athie, n  my cat, miming.. whenever i'm down,  your hug will always cheer me up =)