a trying time

salam,
this is from the bottom of my heart,
as a young adult of 22,
holding the responsibilities of another 4 younger siblings is something heavy.
yes, i do know there are people out there who had the same responsibility far younger than my age,
but truth be told,
i know i can do it but i am not sure if i can go on with it.
adding on with the missing MH370 case,
juz gives me more reason of telling my parent not to go..
but how could i do it,
this is something they have been dreaming since i was young enough to understand the meaning of doing umrah or hajj..
i am sorry, as much as i know it is going to be ok, 
this worry isn't something i could shed.
how could i take care of my siblings, all below 17 and the youngest is 7?
i know that i should stop worrying because i can't do anything.
but knowing the fact doesn't make me worry any less.
even now, i am trying to be brave,
trying to let them go,
trying not to cry,
trying not to be scared.
but how?
i am still scared, and i am still crying.
and i am not ready of letting them go.
no.
every single day for the next 2 week,
will be filled with worry,
until i get a call every single day,
saying they are safe.
until i can see their face again.

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