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this is the lesson i learnt today:
1. when you are in group, do your share of work.
it's a group work. of coz you had to do some of the work. if you are not around to help, ask them about the progress AND OFFER FOR HELP. while it may not be satisfying to those who bend their back to finish the work, they will think that you are responsible enough to ask around. DO NOT ACT STUPID. i wish i can tell what i think to those people buttt i wan't even that hardworking enough, so i lost my guts to say that.
2. it is much better to be known as a blunt person.
i prefer this than bottling up. but in my 8 years working around people, i had come to learnt that society takes too much notice in whatever you do and say. so i started to learn in bottling feelings. i wasn't like that before. i will be blunt because i want people to know that i am being honest (in a way). how i yearn to be like what i used too. right now, i would say it is too late (maybe) to start being blunt again.
3. i wish i can tell what i really feel
i don't know. is it wrong choice of word or wrong choice of topic or whatever it is, whenever i want to bare my feeling, something else happen. this juz shows me that i better shut my mouth. until now, i cannot tell a few people what i really felt. i wish i can do so. but then, it will create gap and awkwardness between us. right now, i felt like going out, drive anywhere i can, do whatever i need to do before i can face that other person. just now, i had to crank my volume so loud (mind you, i wore a headphone, my housemates are sleeping) because i am shaking. really, i am not kidding. though it wasn't physical shaking. my leg felt really weak n i could not stop the feeling that i am crying. that usually happened when i am mad enough that if i followed my feeling, i am going to tell everything and then whatever happen, i don't care. but well, i think i am gutless. so, i kept it. hehe
i think that's all for today, i has an assignment and a quiz tomorrow but i can't do or read due to my emotional ranting. thank you for reading~
1. when you are in group, do your share of work.
it's a group work. of coz you had to do some of the work. if you are not around to help, ask them about the progress AND OFFER FOR HELP. while it may not be satisfying to those who bend their back to finish the work, they will think that you are responsible enough to ask around. DO NOT ACT STUPID. i wish i can tell what i think to those people buttt i wan't even that hardworking enough, so i lost my guts to say that.
2. it is much better to be known as a blunt person.
i prefer this than bottling up. but in my 8 years working around people, i had come to learnt that society takes too much notice in whatever you do and say. so i started to learn in bottling feelings. i wasn't like that before. i will be blunt because i want people to know that i am being honest (in a way). how i yearn to be like what i used too. right now, i would say it is too late (maybe) to start being blunt again.
3. i wish i can tell what i really feel
i don't know. is it wrong choice of word or wrong choice of topic or whatever it is, whenever i want to bare my feeling, something else happen. this juz shows me that i better shut my mouth. until now, i cannot tell a few people what i really felt. i wish i can do so. but then, it will create gap and awkwardness between us. right now, i felt like going out, drive anywhere i can, do whatever i need to do before i can face that other person. just now, i had to crank my volume so loud (mind you, i wore a headphone, my housemates are sleeping) because i am shaking. really, i am not kidding. though it wasn't physical shaking. my leg felt really weak n i could not stop the feeling that i am crying. that usually happened when i am mad enough that if i followed my feeling, i am going to tell everything and then whatever happen, i don't care. but well, i think i am gutless. so, i kept it. hehe
i think that's all for today, i has an assignment and a quiz tomorrow but i can't do or read due to my emotional ranting. thank you for reading~
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